"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5
I cannot think of a better set of verses for our situation. Lean not on your own understanding. That is what we have been doing with this strange diagnosis that Derrick has. He has been told over and over again that he just doesn't fit the profile for the type of patient who has Psuedotumor Cerebrai. It seems that not only do we not understand why this happened to him but none of the doctors do. Even one of the top specialists from Mayo could not give us any reason why this happened. He just said, "you dont' fit the profile, Derrick." That is a little unsettling. However, what we rest in is the fact that the One who created the human body also knows exactly why and how this happened. The One who determines every beat of our heart and every breath we will or won't take, also determined and understands this.
In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. This part of the verse really came to life today when God made our path straight- BACK HOME. That's right, we got to come home tonight, with no need for surgery! If that isn't answered prayer, I don't know what is. We were praying and we know many other people were. We went to our appointment at 8:00am and saw the Neruo-Opthamologist along with his entourage of doctors who had flown in from Korea to learn from him. Obviously, we can see that this doctor knows what he's talking about. He looked at Derrick's eyes and the optic nerve is still swollen. However, he would like to see Derrick continue on the medication for another 3 weeks to a month to give it a chance to reduce the swelling on it's own. This is exactly what we were praying for. We were hoping we wouldn't have to jump into surgery tomorrow, which we were told probably would happen. We really wanted to get back to our boy. And we didn't want to be going through a surgery. Derrick doesn't tolerate anesthesia well and I didn't want to be holding his puke bucket in one hand and my own in the other. Thank you, morning sickness. Thank you.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart. This is precisely what we have been doing. It's all we can do. We would be lost without this trust. Our trusting isn't done. We have three weeks to a month to trust that God will heal these optic nerves. We are believing and hoping for that. And you know what, if he does need the surgery, it won't change anything. We will still trust.
